Care.

So I made the change and got a new host. My website is down right now…frustration but the exact reason I am moving on from my current unhelpful host.

I am redesigning my identity…TORTURE!

Currently my brainstorming sheet contains this:

“Reflective, Fair, Mentor, Competitive”

Monochromatic Pops of color

Want color but don’t want my identity to look elementary or trendy.

Classic.

Simple.

Organized.

Showcase.

Beginning of the long process I guess….

Typically I wouldn’t write stuff like this: I am a very thankful, appreciative person, I pray, I thank God for blessings he bestows on me everyday. I tell my entire family I Love them every single day through email or phone calls. But I am also deeply sensitive and private. My appreciation for life is personal and in turn held close to my heart and the select people I trust.

But as I was running this afternoon, my best thinking time, I thought about what a great situation I am in. There have been a lot of things grating on my mind, yes, still too personal to write about on this atypical day but I realized that I have so much to be thankful for and I thought it would be good therapy and good perspective to list all the gifts in my life.

My family and God, who blessed me with my family, are number one. There is not an action executed without the askance, guidance, of this audience. Their patience, support, and unconditional love is not only incredible, it’s humbling. “Everyone should be loved so much,” my mother, referring to each member in our family.

My health. The fact that I can get up and run when the motivation strikes me with little thought. I tie my shoes and out the door I go. I am so blessed with a strong body, that does get hurt and does get ill, but it fights and it works out the bad. My body functions, as it should, from my hair that grows, to my toes that bend. Nothing is insignificant when it comes to my health and I try not to forget how different life would be and honestly, how sad life would be, if I did not have my health.

Chad, my boyfriend. Anyone reading this may venture, ‘Why is he number three?’ Well without the two paragraphs above I couldn’t appreciate Chad. He has made me grow, toughen up, become more blunt, and all around improve my weaknesses. For that I shall forever be in debt. I also love him with all my heart….struggling with this private stuff, I’ll not go any further because I am not comfortable writing more.

My friends. I get lonely in Hawaii and it makes me appreciate all the friends I have. I am lucky to connect and my lasting friendships with so many people. My friends are good, loving, caring, kind people. I like to think my and their personalities attract.

My Animals. I am blessed with two wonderful dogs, Macie and Grizzly.

Now to the more shallow things:

I’m a good basketball player. I love the game and I am so thankful for my talent. That love has afforded me a lot of friends and taught me a lot of life lessons.

I can eat ice cream when I want and not worry about it. Granted I do worry about it and I only eat a spoonful at a time…but come on, not everyone is afforded that luxury.

I live in the US. I was raised as an equal to a man and a superior to he who wants to assume I am not equal.

I got a college education, paid for by my parents.

I am starting in a career path that will not set me up with extreme wealth, but I can and do have what I want. I also love what I do.

I work from home and I live in Hawaii. But that could change in a month’s time. It’s irritating to move but it’s also amazing!

I have memories. I am so thankful for all the wonderful life events that I have already experienced and the people that have come in and gone out of my life. I like to reflect, and 90% of my memories are grand. The other 10% aren’t but they made me a stronger person and therefore good to reflect upon as well.

I don’t talk, I listen. Now, this may seem silly to be thankful for but I learn a lot and observe a lot more this way. I may be wordy when I type in this blog, but that’s because my fingers talk better than my mouth.

I am totally and completely blessed. I love my life, my family, friends and Chad.